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終於，回到了我所熟悉的台灣


相信很多留學生都是這樣，哭著出國，哭著回國，同樣都是一個原因

"捨不得"

六月十號是我離開赫爾辛基的日子，天空下著毛毛雨，天氣是近幾天來最差的一天
在回到了台灣十天後，我還有一種彷彿從夢中醒來的感覺，時間的流動顯然尚未完全將我從芬蘭帶回台灣，眼中所見的訊息在經過腦中轉換後與過去半年的經驗完全衝突，這並不是不好，是一種奇妙的經驗，有一種雙軌並進的奇妙感

所謂的雙軌並進，意味著我在遇到某些事情時，會想：這樣的事情在芬蘭會是怎麼樣進行呢？這樣的狀況在芬蘭會被怎樣處理呢？
在經歷這樣的思考轉換之後，得到的並不是誰優誰劣的結論，而是能以較為理性的態度審查事情，我認為這樣的思考會是半年來相當寶貴的收穫

當然，半年的時間實在是太短，我沒有辦法確定這樣的雙軌思考可以持續多久，因為畢竟生活在台灣，之前半年所累積的另一種思考脈絡每天都在消耗，到了殆盡的那一天或許又是我需要充電的時候了

總在離開時才想念，芬蘭乾爽的氣候(當然是指春天)、宜人的景色與優閒的生活步調是與台灣反差最大的幾點，即便多數歐洲學生都把赫爾辛基嫌得要死，說太無聊太乏味速度太慢，但是一體兩面，總是會有人欣賞她另外的特點，不過後遺症是城市的喧囂與繁忙的交通讓我寧可把自己關在家裡，變得像芬蘭人一樣內向沉默，希望這只是暫時的

至少現在，我會習慣自己煮飯，會習慣分配自己的時間，會習慣獨力處理事情

這個部落格將會轉變型態，之後將會記錄關於我的創作與生活，請各位多多指教囉~

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At long last, I came back to Taiwan!

I guess students who study overseas are two of a kind: we cry for aboarding and cry for landing back under one reason.

"Couldn't want to let go."

10th of June was the day I left Helsinki, it was rainy and gloomy, it was the worst weather during those days.
After coming back to Taiwan, I'm still having the feeling, the feeling of waking up from a dream. Time's still heading forward but I'm not on the move, part of me is still held up there. What I've seen in Taiwan is transfered into another thinking, conflicting my ex-knowledge so much. It's not so bad after all, on the other hand, it feels like a "two tracks" thinking process.

So called "two tracks", means when I face something here, the other door in my mind opens: how will it be in Finland? what will be the way to solve it in Finland? After being transfered like this way, it wouldn't end up "which one is better", the benefit is to observe things in a more rational way, I deeply think it is the most gorgeous gains in the past 6 months.

Anyways, 6 months is a very short time, I'm not even sure that how long this feeling will last, because I'm living in Taiwan now, every single day I had was wearing away my "two tracks" thinking process. I guess some day when I cannot think things differently, it will be the time for me to charge myself ;=)

Missing always follows leaving. The balmy weather in spring, amazing sights and slow-paced style are the biggest contrasts compare to Taiwan. Though most European students don't like Helsinki that much, mostly complain about the city is "boring", "flat" and "lack of variety", but things have two sides, there is always someone knows how to appreciate it's merits, though the side effect is being scared by busy, crowded city and traffic congestion, rather to stay home and being as calm as Finns, I hope the symptoms will be only temporary.

At least for now, I'm still cooking for myself, trying to devide time nicely and dealing with things independently.

As to this blog, it will be changed as my work and life record, let's see how it goes!